Brutally honest death is... but fairness always beyond comprehension
by mortals locked in the matrix...
Free your mind... free you Soul... the body is a prison used to
to enslave the freedom of infinity.
I stepped beyond the body and the mind and found myself...
not in Oneness,
but in utter terror.
Absolute silence and no time beyond time beyond form.
The only thing left was my point of view.
In the middle of it all.
The abject terror of infinite dimension surrounding me
No form No time No me...
Yet there was an infinite fractal spinning as I turned
back and forth
trying desperately to get back
even when I couldn't remember what "this" was...
thrashing about in the infinite center
thinking that I had to do something'
to get out
to get back
until I heard my friend say
and I did, I thought "love... love.... love..."
and I stopped by spinning back and forth
as the world formed around me once again
and I knew
this periphery, this illusion surrounding me
is just a diversion, no matter how real it seems...
like a dream I cannot wake from...
and I create this room, this floor these walls...]
and everything around me in a sphere of illusion
a matrix entrapped by my temporary senses
a comfortable prison of form
that barely separates me
from the terror
of abject infinity, fractals... fractals... fractals...
stretching for miles and miles until I cannot see the endpoint
and yet I do not fall like I thought I would
I remain here in the center
with nothing to fear
and yet I claw my way back to this mundane
drab existence where reptilians feed on fear
but I will never forget the promise I made
just to get back
that I will never tell... I will never tell... I will never tell.
I lied even then.
So, even at the cost of death, I will tell you now...
the truth I saw.
Infinity, terrifying infinity, surrounds us all...
Just beyond the limit of our perceptions...
Of what we can see, hear, feel, taste and touch...
Its there, I know it is.
I saw it.
I will never forget.
Everything splits in shards and the light appears
There is no sound in the timeless realm.
Only infinite fractal dimension spreading out from the center.
The center that is You without You without form or body or mind.
Just a point of view - but you can still think!!!
and that my friend is the terrifying part.
I thought I would find Oneness
and all I found was terrifying isolation.
and spinning infinite fractal spirals emanating
from me as me... as everything.
©2008 Mike Shea